Tuesday, 5 January 2010

Mean Season

'When you're hot you shoot the works and when you're cold, lay off for a while'

Matt Dillon said that in Drugstore Cowboy. He did a fine job in that picture. In Rumble Fish too he manages to upstage Mickey Rourke. To Die For, Singles.

Sexy, wiley, clumsy, vulnerable, comic, resourceful ...

2009 started out good and for I while there I was shooting the works. Up end of May I like to think ponies got a run of good outings - "right there" performances warts and all. High points were the Book Room in Lancaster and Mojo's, Blackpool - both of these late Spring.

After Mojo's I got in a road accident and came back not too shabby, but if I'm honest that's probably the last time in recent memory I can think that I've enjoyed peddling this stuff.

Friends and well wishers often ask of ponies whether it's something I shouldn't be pushing to the next level. Whetever that may be is often some vague, shapeless intimation and probably involves some closer draw towards a professionalism that in any case is at odds with the project's aims and its origins.

I need to be clear, for myself, much of the time that the ability to sing and to channel this stuff seems closely linked to a kind of thriving, personally. It's up there at the highest point of need and follows an experience of connectedness, self awareness and fulfiling engagement across many a domain. I suppose the point I'm trying to make is that like much of anything, any kind of creative activity ebbs and flows and needs the right circumstances in order to flourish.

I've hit a black patch before, where nothing got through. Lasted about two or three years with no song or singing - or much else, from a 'creative' perspective. At the start of 2007 I had to learn to play the guitar all over again. In the process I got reminded that you can't be hot all the time, or cold neither.

'When you're hot you shoot the works and when you're cold, lay off for a while'.

Knowing how to roll with your punches seems to me a useful technique for staying involved in meaningful work.

So here's to Matt Dillon and

laying off for a while.